I've missed writing.
I haven't edited photos in a while either.
I've missed that too.
There is so much to say.
Yet I am lost for words.
I haven't the right words nor the strength to tell the story right now.
I have come to some decisions which gives me some clarity.
I still have so many more to make.
I'm weary of playing people's games and so it is time to let things just be, because the game can only be played if I choose to participate.
I'm nearing the end of my alone time with Annabel- I can feel a wedding coming soon, and I THINK I know who will be waiting for me as I walk that aisle, but there are days where I am thrown back into doubt and uncertainty. I've decided to get rid of my VW golf, I'm done with it...I've injected to much stress, energy, emotion, money, and work into that car and it continues to be a cause of anxiousness. So it will go- hopefully within the next 2 months.
I'm also at a point now, where I am ready for another baby. Fortunately both suitors involved in my decision are 'cluckier' than I, in the baby department.
Annabel is well, although grows wiser by the day, and as proud and blessed as I feel to have such a bright little girl on my hands, she knows far more than I'd like her to. She reads my emotions so often. She asks questions I'm not ready to answer...but she IS healthy and so very loved, and I can't ask for more.
A quick instagram update.
Lent has begun.
Annabel's baby clothes have finally been put into a large plastic tub for storage.
Uni has returned.
Hopefully my writing will too...and soon.
God bless you.
